“Just because the past didn’t turn out like you wanted it to doesn’t mean you future can’t be better than you imagined.”-Unknown
Today is the start of the future. My future begins now, tomorrow, and the days after. It is scary because this years is when everything changes. Even though I turned 18 last year and was given new and bigger responsibilities than I had before. I was given the responsibilities of making appointments, dealing with doctors, and dealing with social security. Let me tell you my mom made it look easy. Even though I had watched her since day one dealing with these struggle had no idea how to deal with it she made it look so easy.
Now this is the year that changes everything. This is the year that I have my last school dance, my last choir concert, and my last day of high school. It is also a year of first though. It is when I move out and move to Edgewood and deal with real life. It is when I really start to deal with doctors and chemotherapies on my own.
When I look at my future it scares me because I don’t know how to do things on my own, but I know I will be fine. My parents are already planning on coming to my campus every other weekend to visit me and make sure I am alright. It is going to be hard because I will be leaving behind my family among with my friends and teachers who I have grown to love.
I have had many friends from school who have stopped talking to me through the years, but then I still have those friends who are still there and have been there since day one. when we say goodbye there will be laughs, but also some tears. I am so happy to have those friends who have moved away, but still talk to me as though they see me everyday.
Then there are the bullies who have made me cry. Whether it was from cyberbulling, calling me names, laughing at me or just ignoring me. Then never apologizing. One day you will see what you did to me, you just made me a stronger person I am so thankful that you did that to me, because now I am on top. So thank you to all the bullies. And make sure no one gets bullied ever again.
Then there are the teachers and school nurses who have been so loyal to me. Often times I would not be able to play or learn the way do other students do, so I would stay and sit with the teachers or nurses who I would eventually become close to. They have been friends that I often needed. They were there when I needed someone mature to talk and laughed or cried with at school. I have had many teachers who have treated me the same as other students and that is what makes the difference. I have a middle school teacher that i still talk with even though I am about to graduate. I am so thankful for her because she has helped me get through so many rough times during middle school. During my last IEP meeting there were teachers and nurses who have been there from the start. They could not believe how far I have overcame throughout the years. During the meeting we all started crying because we finally realized this is the last meeting EVER.
Then there are the other teachers who have made me cry. Whether it was from failing me even though I wasn’t even there, yelling at me in front of the class for something I cannot control, or just treating me differently. One day you will see what you did to me, you just made me a stronger person and to be the person I am today. I am so thankful that you did that to me, because all that it did was make me fight for what I believe in, an now look at me, look where I am. I am in the top half of my class with a 3.2 GPA and about ready to graduate, and go to one of the best colleges there is, so thank you.
Lastly thank you to my mom who has been there for me since the beginning of time. I dont know what I would do without her. She has done so many things for me. Even though at time I probably don’t deserve it. She is my best friend. I hope our relationship last like this till the end of time. THANK YOU MOM. I LOVE YOU.